Stuck

I stayed home today too.
I feel sick to my stomach when I remember I have to go back to school.
The people sicken me.
No one likes me there anyway.
I hate school.
My thoughts are caged and my mind is forced to memorize formulas and derivations.
My mind is broader than that.
I want to study politics and how the world works, not mathematics and chemistry.
I just want to be free from the chains that bind me to the ground. 

I know I have to go back on Monday.
Fuck everything.
No one knows how much pain I go through.

I ask myself.
Why? Why am I the only one who feels this way?
I look around and I see normal people.
Everyone seems so different from me.
They all seem so stable.
While here I am, a mess.

I haven't stopped crying myself to sleep, hoping nobody else hears.
I don't know what else to do.
I'm stuck.