I'm not worth it.

Every day is a journey.Every day I travel so far and so long.Looking for something that I know isn't there.Hope.I cry at night thinking of how worthless I am.I don't want to feel this way anymore.I hope that one day I'd have the courage to do what he did.To just cut myself till I bleed to death. To...

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I can't keep living like this.Smiling whenever I know I need to.I just can't anymore.I'm sick and tired of everything.I'm stuck in this hole and no one wants to help me out.I'm just too messed up to be fix...

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Teacher(s)

Why?The only question I could ask is why. Why do you judge me like that? I see your eyes, your judgmental eyes. I bite my lips till I taste blood covering my mouth. I'm so ashamed. Please don't judge me like that. You are so ignorant.  You are educated but ignorant. You are not fit to be teacher. You shame me till I'd want nothing but to be dead. Everyday I want to go home because of you. You...

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The Letter

Today, I cried in school. I was slapped, but it really didn't hurt. So Mei, it's not your fault. It's mine. Please don't bear guilt in your heart. It's not your fault, it's mine. I'm sorry. Today, I cried in school. Mam, I'm sorry I acted without thinking. I'm really sorry. I was stupid and immature. I hope I can make it up to you. My guilt is filling up and I don't know what to do. Except to say...

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Dear Friend,

How are you? I hope you have been better. I on the other hand have not. Everything is all wrong. I feel so defenseless, the pain and the misery is here to stay. I want to kill the monsters inside me, but I can't.  My cuts are getting bigger and there are now cuts on my thighs. I've tried screaming, but no one is listening. So don't you tell me that I didn't try to ask for help. Because I did...

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