Dear Friend,

I honestly have been better.

But today the clouds are rolling in again.

I don't know...

I'm currently in the restroom; I locked myself in the last cubicle and cried. Right now, I'm writing to you and I don't even know what about.

I have this horrible pang in my heart. It is screaming multiple times, saying "YOU ARE STUPID" again and again.

Maybe I am stupid and lazy and fugly.

I don't really know what important thing I have been up to lately. Just keeping afloat I guess.

We just finished a test in foreign language and my brain wants to fall off. Part of me wants to look for a psychiatrist, fast. But another part of me wants to feel depressed all the time. I have cried again and again without knowing why. But now I think I know why... It's because I'm stupid. Like really stupid.

I hear my classmates and they are laughing and talking of wonderful things, but I feel as though I have been left out. Left out of life. 

Your friend,

E.L.E.

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Dear Friend,

My heart pounds heavily.
I whisper, I am better now.
I honestly am.
I am healing and the scars on my thighs and wrists are fading.
I got through this.
Don't get me wrong, I still cry but I have stopped cutting.
It's amazing.
It's a different feeling.
The feeling of self control.
Everything honestly gets better.
Do not give up.
I fought my demons off, it took a while but I did.
And I won.
I'm still alive.

Your friend, 
E.L.E.

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